For years, everything I tried seemed to fall apart. I sent out hundreds of job applications and rewrote my CV more times than I can count. Interviews gave me hope, but most ended in silence or a short rejection email. Each one hit hard. It started to feel like something was wrong with me.
Money problems soon took over everything. Without a steady pay cheque, bills stacked up fast. Rent fell behind, small debts turned into bigger ones, and even groceries felt like a luxury some weeks. I’d listen to friends talk about saving or travelling while I worried about covering basics. The stress never really left.
I tried starting small businesses, too. I put in whatever money I had, believing one idea would finally work. But they all failed quietly. Savings disappeared, partners backed out, and promising plans just didn’t happen. People around me lost confidence in my ideas, and honestly, so did I.
Relationships suffered just as much. Partnerships ended without much explanation, leaving me confused and hurt. Some friends drifted away, tired of hearing about my problems. Others made jokes that stung. Loneliness settled in deep. At night, the weight of it all came crashing down. I’d lie awake replaying failures, wondering why nothing ever changed. There were days I came close to giving up entirely. Continue reading https://drbokko.com/?p=35833